Learned.

I am again humbled today in my journey which has shown me so much this last year.

I am humbled by a specialist who diagnosed some issues I have been dealing with internally in body for some time. I am amazed at her ability to speak into what I have been going through, to educate me on this vessel I live in and to direct me into the healing that needs to occur. I find that the emotion can separate from the physical, and the physical from the spiritual. The balance we so desire is not remedied through a good meal and some alone time over the weekend. No, the remedy for living a holistic life is far beyond the good things we already know; the proper food intake, exercise, rest and so forth. Those things are good and yet I find that even with such great changes to this system, I am feeling short of completion. Not that one should reach a complete and whole stage of health amidst entropy, the natural occurrence of our bodies breaking down, but one might be able to better understand and therefore care for the gift of the vessel which we’ve been given while we have it.

So where am I going? Sabbatical. Yes, I will be listening well to this specialist, this body, this heart and this mind as it transfers from poor habit to healthy habit. I will be encountering a lot of different choices and will be taking upon myself not just the work of diet changes, lifestyle changes and behavior changes, but changes that will require me to relearn my thoughts on the vary nature of being in tune with one’s self. Really in tune.

I am humbled by life’s ever changing state and by the fact that we have often wasted so much of the harmony in our lives by the attraction of disharmonious functions. In other words, we choose poorly most often to devour a lifestyle, foods and habits that eventually leave our bodies mistrusting us. I am excited to see what happens as my body learns to adapt to these changes, to train and develop new ways of intake and output. The very fact that I am awake and open to fixing these issues which have long been around is refreshing and is available to anyone. I just do not like doing the mediocre work any longer. There is no gain in fast food, so to speak. There is no reward in the instant. There may be gratification or relief in the moment, but in the long run there lay much more of an after effect that I dare not want to encounter any more.

So, what’s my agenda for the next while? Rest. Big rest. Work. Big work. It is the work that will spark a full life and it’s road is not easy, but really, what have I done that’s been easy? I choose the hard to get the most growth and I know when to choose to rest, sort of. So friends and many strangers alike, here goes a new era and a new season and a renewed life…

Good night.

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