Ocean

I’d be ignorant to say that life is not great. It truly is. Each one of us makes the choices we so often do without thinking and end up in the places we so often wonder about. It rattles my cage not that we question the very purpose of our lives in this now functionally comfortable society. Our North American dreams have come true and each day we watch others live lives in the pursuit of their dreams. Highlights of each star are showcased vividly in HD to demonstrate the passion of the human spirit and its will to succeed, as well as the benefits of discipline and hard work. No one gets to amazing without passing through alright, as Bill Wither’s would mention in the documentary, Wisdom.

So, as I sit and take account of all that is before me, I question my next steps. This is common in the stage of life I am in. Many of my friends are married and some even are restlessly pursuing other interests while remaining married. We are not kids any longer, though we live and act as such at times. The buttered appeal of being known has come and gone. The longing for experience still exists however, and it is there that all sorts of questions arise.

I’ve watched my friends come and go. Memories of distant times fade as years go on and yet a fond love exists for time spent with these beautiful creatures. My heart still searches for something, whether its love or belonging, much like most of our do. I find the mind escaping to a place that brings neither hope, nor despair. Actually, the mind senses both. Left with options to do or not do, so many of us sit waiting for that spark and as some would put it, the Universe to show us our next path. It’s a funny concept to apply to life, as I did not grow up with this Universe thing in mind. In actual fact, only in the last couple years has it become the speakable and safe thing to mention in conversation with others and lending a hand in advice. No one would claim faith any longer as we all but have been exhausted of religion and the concept of God. Sadly, the truth of God leaves few impressed as their seeking leads no further than hearsay. It’s like being told about the ocean and never seeing it. I first was in the ocean at age 24. I loved it. A year later, I saw in it quite a bit in southeast Asia and then two years after that, surfed it in Costa Rica. If I had only heard about the ocean, I would have been able to tell you all about it. However, I could not tell you about it buoyancy or salty taste, its temperature or currents. Not only that but as I’ve gone deeper, how could I could speak of its force, its power or its beauty all in the same without surfing it. You get my drift?

We live in a life that gives us much second hand experience. I believe without the tools we have today, we could not globally share so much of our lives, yet the situation remains as we are able to hear and read about things we will never experience. Driven by the pursuit of wealth, in order for our lifestyles and cost of living to remain, we seldom are able to experience first hand the thrills of things. We are consumed by an exterior life. We know very little of the interior life as the fanciful things that adorn us and dress us up like a golden calf distract our attention so often from the work that existed to make us who we are today. Our history not only shows this, but promotes it. The study of things first hand is what brought us encyclopedias, history books, architecture, medicine, art and so much more. We still get to experience all these things, yes, but I wonder how much we actually take in or pursue for our own good and quality of life.

It’s not even a question of we today, but I. I find myself thankful, grateful and appreciative of all that surrounds me. I also find myself wondering how so much came to be. I long for experience, newness and adventure. I want the ocean. I want to know the tides, the currents, the power of such a thing. The shoreline, so to speak, is dressed up so nicely and I guess I have wandered very little into the waters as of late, though they call out.

This is alright. This will be amazing. These are just my thoughts.

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